Where Is The Goddamned Light?

Where was the goddamned light? Couldn’t they send someone for her? She hated the way she felt; dazed and hazy the way you feel when you wake up from a nap that has done more harm than good. It was dark and there were no lines only jagged ends to things, half of this and a quarter of that, she didn’t see any wholes. This place wasn’t what she had expected.

You may find yourself asking, how did I get here?

For some people it's a song that takes them back to that moment in their past. For me, my life and past are defined by movies. I remember who I was with, how I felt, the smells, sights and sounds of the original moment. Last night I watched a movie that I haven't seen in years. When it came out, I was with a different person who was not my husband and I was childless. I was a 27 year old woman in graduate school waiting to venture out into the world. I was on the cusp of true adulthood. I was younger.  I was free. The movie, the moment opened Pandora's Box.